May 202013
My other options

Sometimes, I get tired. Physically, emotionally, I’m human. I get too focused on details and laundry and just getting the kids through the day and in the bed so I can do it all again tomorrow. Today, though, I have lifted my eyes and seen that even though the road I am traveling is not easy or simple, it is good, and it beats my other options. I could have been single.  We could have stopped having kids and had […]

 Posted by at 10:42 pm
Sep 242012
Birthday Sabotage

It’s birthday season here. We have three birthdays in September, two in October, one in November.  This year we are scaling back on the birthday celebrations.  I had read in the past that birthdays are an emotional mine field for adopted people.  When a kid learns what birth actually is, and that on their day of birth they were with birth mother, it can obviously cause some strain.  Joshua has started this year with birthday sabotage.  He is not verbalizing […]

 Posted by at 6:17 pm
Sep 102012
Adventures with Pepper the Neurotic Schnauzer

Can dogs be neurotic? Absolutely. Pepper is a great little dog; kind, loving, loyal, everything a dog should be, even if she’s not the sharpest tack in the drawer.  I do love my little dog Pepper, but that dog has issues.  Many issues; too many to discuss in  one blog post. The most significant problem is definitely  fear of thunder. Before I had a smart phone to use to  check the weather , Pepper was the weather reporter around here.  […]

 Posted by at 9:05 am
Jul 202012
Shootings, Disease, Worry, and Me

Went to bed last night thinking about my Abigail. To bring you up to date, I will tell you that she is in Ecuador and I am back in Texas. She has two bug bites from some nasty jungle insect that have become infected and she’s going to the doctor today for help, without me, but with Heather and Wanda. I laid in bed thinking through worst case scenarios.  What ifs, and you know what I’m talking about.  You’ve all […]

 Posted by at 9:08 am
May 062012
Embracing who I am, and who I am not

Abigail did fantastic at piano recital yesterday;  I think it was her finest performance to date. She looked good too.  I did not have much to do with it. She paddled her own proverbial canoe. It has been a crazy week. We had no time to consider what she would wear.  Friday, on the way from piano lessons to picking up Joshua at school, we had 15 minutes, total, to run into Kohl’s, and I had to buy shorts for […]

 Posted by at 12:42 pm
Apr 302012
Ticked off at Cerebral Palsy

I realize it doesn’t make any sense to be mad with CP.  But that’s where I’ve been the last 24 hours. I was getting dressed for church and Paul headed in to get Caleb up and dressed, and he called out for assistance.  Caleb had gotten sick in his bed, and there was a mess.  He didn’t seem too unhappy, but he was stinky and sticky  and so I took off my church clothes,put on shorts and  a T shirt, […]

 Posted by at 9:20 am
Sep 072011
Abandonment and Loss

My Joshua deals with  fears and insecurities. I don’t blame him.  I saw where he came from;  I watched  him learn how to chew, to eat, to use a bottle at a year old.  Just like a newborn, he would stick out his tongue with the food on it, kick it around in his mouth, and we had to help him learn to swallow.  His little body couldn’t process food right away.  I am so thankful we have a family […]

 Posted by at 2:31 pm